wad a great concert , great performance by everyone, it's high standard one, ok!!!

all my effort paid off, the concert runs very smoothly. i must thank all the logistic sub comm for helping out so much, and hui ting ,gary, and winston, without ur help, thing wun run so smoothly ....thx alot

很忙 ， 有点不明所以的忙
忙完了之后，却又不知道该做些什么
我不喜欢， 这种落差的感觉

omg ....we went to bugis again, second times this week and jayson went it for 3 day. so no life.



i'm feeling very tired , tt why i whole day sian sian de . sorry guys !! but its really tired to walk from bugis to orchard ...have been walking the whole day(eating the whole day also).


got a bit of mood swing , i guess . ya , i'm a creep

i guess i'm not the one .....find someone else
i need someone i can depend on , i no longer can be someone tt you can depend on


who noe my pain
who noe i need help
who noe when i want to yell everything out,all i can do is silent
who noe i almost kill myself due to these emo shit
.......no one, and no one need to noe, just leave me alone

wah .... u noe hw tired can it be to do everything by yourself, both of u are very irresponsible lo , even if you are tired , should have make a effort to call me back, after i gave you guys so many call. and stop saying you are tired, all jus excuses,
you went to play and clubbing the previous day, and i was doing all the work at home and have to do your part for you, and in the end i jus earn the same marks with you, seriously not worth it. and i think you jus take it for granted, as this is not the first time you guys do this to me.

fuck , forget it. since everything is over, i think we will probably fail this module. and is holiday time, i shall rest.

suddenly fell in love with this song called creep by Radiohead...quite a old song that was release on 1992 ...but i love this song and the genre which is call Psychedelic Rock, although they are more known as a alternative rock band

发现很多于事无补的安慰， 抱歉， 我只有不屑

it was a busy and tiring day , from 9 to 6 , i have been staying inside mac room doing my 3GA project without resting ... i even skip my lunch in order to finish it faster. end up , i didnt really completed , but kinda ok overall ...so i jus submit and went to meet up with zhi wei

aft tt went to watch the peformance of xing guan shi shao ....lin you jia, pan yu wen , xu ren jie, and zhou ding wei... miss the first song of lin you jia, zou gang suo de ren...kinda pity.

actually i shld have meet up with cass and comapnies...but i assume they are already there ... so sorry, cuz u guys to miss lin you jia's part.

they are quite good , i must say , but i expected more from lin you jia ...but he didn't sang well for na shuo ge ....not very nice.

i think xu ren jie and pan yu wen performance are the best ....

gotcha !!!!

ok... kok yuh and shi wei ...nice one, u got me this time. Really surprising...


this is the story, i went to the SCC concert meeting ystd, after sometime, jayson and i went out from the LT to bring the guitar down , right after i stepped out, i saw a familar backview. at 1st i thought i see wrong, cuz this is nP, and they are nyp student.

I'm kinda shock they will come, wad shock me more is tt ky brought 8 tickets for the concert from ziqin(which i think he is really daring), which mean he want all g-force member to come for the concert.

i am damn stress nw, if none of my songs are selected for the concert, hw i jiao dai to them !!!!

have a long chat with steve until nw .... 5++ in the morning o.O
tok alot , but mainly abt music , and scc future !!!

steve, didnt noe u so 看得起 me, thx alot. he give alot of advises, which i think is very useful, i guess i will try his way of writing song, if i work well with this method, i guess i will adapt it and mix it with my own way . but no matter wad, i wun give up on my own way.

and steve, u are one of the best melodist in SCC , and probably the best. hope to see u go extreme for the genre of your song. must be brave enough to do non-commercial music.




fun:"i'm coming , my bed"...........

sam are flying off to china today. Bon voyage !!!


sudden feel tt I'm all alone.
no one is there for me i think, i mean no one is really there for me to depend on. wad else can i do other den telling myself to be strong, i guess tt's my only option.

insecure and fright. After so much things happened recently, i do fear.


sometimes, i really hoped there is a guardian angel who can bring me back from darkness, let me lean on her shoulder and let me rest on her arm.

and kok yuh, wad u said tt night was really hurting both me and sam , on tt particular moment, second. both of us was so upset tt we almost cried. we do care and we still care for you.

is it tt our friendship dun mean anything to you ?


-insomnia fun-

although I screw up the song ... but after all, i'm still satify with this lyrics i wrote. for u SAM


在一个小房间 空间很有限
看着一小片的天空 圆了和你单纯的梦

人总是在改变 都变的太虚伪
你却好奇伸手探索 坠入陷阱中的诱惑

Pre- chorus

离开我 是最好方式
让你离开井 追求宽阔天空

Chorus

你飞走 留下我独自守候
我依旧 做着单纯的梦
相信 有一天 你一定会懂
我 相信 相信 相信 呆了好久

你飞走 是否有所收获
我依旧 看着小小天空
等到那一天 你终于想通
可惜 那青蛙 也守候太久
也已经走 。。。。。

today is really a bad day , i'm feeling fucking depress today , very tired very stress, i missed my lunch in order to finish my work ,and when i was practicing with xiaoqiang and jayson, i was feeling weak and sick . in short, i'm in bad mood today. for those who wan to joke with me or try to cheer me up, i'm sry for not responding to u .

my performance was like shit, seriously not in 状况, kept on forgetting lyrics. simply suck.

everthing jus screw up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jayson are not feeling well today ...so i didn't went to sch for gym-ing as usual , in fact , i join Sam to the woodlands public gym as he call and asked me. the training was quite intense today, feel quite tired after the workout, and so when sam tell me to go eat beef steak at some nearby the western food stall. i didnt hesitate.

the steak was really X for a coffee shop stall, it cost $13 for each set, but the steak really worth its price, juicy and tender with a special fried mash potato.

oh ya ... when are on the way home , we saw two persons playing skateboard under the hot sun with a ninja constume...and the most off is tt they noe sam was taking pic on them, one of them actually pose and let us take. sam and i were laughing like hell.

well nth much today.... need to help to cook for family today nw...gtg

好好照顾自己,ok? 傻瓜

happy belated birthday ...kok yoh ...sorry , i was too busy with my cca and schwork, didnt have time to celebrate with u ...but i wish u can stay happy forever !!!

the lesson start at 9 am, and i woke up at 9 am, so i took cab and rush down to sch, as i missed the 3GA lesson last week le, i dun wan to miss it again. den u noe wad , i reach the class, the room was locked and no body inside. den i pick up my phone, den i saw the msg from my friend....lesson cancelled !!!!

damn u, i mean damn me ....waste money

happy birthday biao jie

happy 18th birthdae to xing hu biao jie....stay happy !!!

小孩

今天像个小孩，玩的很开心。乱跑，乱吃，乱玩，很单纯

didnt go to sch today due to serious diarrhoea, i cant remb hw many time i went to toilet, but nw my limb are weak and i still feel very sick now !!!

this mp

i'm really happy and satisfy with my performance on mp today ...the respond from the other was quite positive, especially nu li , quite a lot of ppl said it was good, and tell us to get ready for the concert.. haha

however , i don't think i sang well, i made mistake for all 3 song, need to work harder next time ba , and maxwell , u did ur best and u are sick today, is ok to make a small mistake.. dun take it too seriously ... ok ?

and ya ... to xiao qiang,jayson and huiting, I'm so cute ..right !!! lol ^-^


你爽约了， 不是说要来的吗。。从台上， 放眼望去， 没有你的身影，有点失望。。。

我越重视你们， 越觉得自己不被重视。

sad to say, I'm not feeling good this week, not becuz of school but my friends, in fact, I'm enjoying all the schoolwork i'm doing and its making me happy, isn't it irony ?
seriously , if my concern dun worth a shit , den forget it. and whoever reading this and thought u are the one i'm refering to, u are not the only one !!!

sian....

happy 19th birthday to biao ge

happy 19th birthday to Cassandra, my dear biao ge lol, hope u will like the chocolate, even if u gain weight, die die also must eat !!!

wonder if u will read my blog, but still , my best wishes for u !!!

sec day of sch ...still not use to the pace of sch life, maybe i'm still in holiday mood !!!

new sem, new module which mean new nightmare, i'm damn sure tt i will suffer this sem too !

probably becuz i noe i will not be free in the next few month due too sch work, I've been working out with 5 song or more for this month.保留甜蜜,奴隶, 毕业典礼,韩剧 and writing lyrics for maxwell new song.

today practice 奴隶, 毕业典礼 and 韩剧, but is not fully done.

really thx to maxwell for figuring out the cords of 毕业典礼, its kinda jazzy pop song, and both maxwell and i really like it.

and maxwell , i really love ur song, it always the feeling of ur melody tt make me fell in love with it, keep it up :)

finally back from chalet, freaking tired,, nv have a good rest ever since last friday.

well, the chalet was kinda alright, not really very fun, maybe i didnt really interact with the freshies enough.

need to say that it's really hilarious to see hw gals behave after they get drunk. they were very high ba , i can say.

their face blushed, wanting was still alright, but xin hu‘s was jus as red as guan gong. but wanting look better after she drank, 皮肤白里透红的.

btw, the OCH trip was dumb

thx guys ....its fun and i enjoying singing with u guys, thx for the present too , although i dun need the facial mask , my skin is naturally good ..lol...but aniwae....still thx


i wan to hear more 内幕....so tell me next time ok, cass and ziqin ....

turn off soon. tml still got chalet !!!!

happiest day

this is one of the happiest day of my life, a lot of fun , a lot of surprise, a lot of touching moment. ( and ya, alot of curry power, yuck !!!)

thank you for all the effort u guy put in to make my celebration day memorable.

special thanks to shi wei and kok yoh, u guy did a great help to prepare the food.

this is really the happiest birthday celebration i have in my life, all g-force member are here, leeyun and jocelyn are here, even long time no see friends like xulong and jeremy attended.

i'm really glad and think that i'm really lucky to have u guys as my friends, and once again, thanks

笑一笑

是一种天真得以为和期待， 不过没抱任何希望。 期待落空， 没关系。 笑笑就过了。生活继续 ！

我的座右铭： 要别人开心， 自己先开心

送上一张会让人开心的照片：




请吐

1st present

today i receive my 1st present ...from zhi wei ... thx alot, i appreciate it. i like the design, but i find the cutting kinda hard to match...but nvm, i will still wear it.

陳綺貞 - a piece of summer concert singapore

it a fantastic concert by cheer Chen and her fellow band members during " A Piece of Summer" Tour at Singapore Max Pavilion.

the first half of the concert was mostly with acoustic arrangment, it were soft and nice that made me swing my light stick along with the music. one of it was her only new song "失败者的飞翔“.

den the concert started to get heavy with her rock song "sentimental kills", lot the fans stand up to watch, which force me to stand up too, as my seat was the last roll on the middle part.

the next song, rock version of "躲在你的衣櫃", bring the atmosphere to the first climax, all the fans stand on the chair and start jumping and shouting.

after tt , i ran to the front, although the guards stopped me, but i managed to sneak through, hahaha. finally can see her in close distance, wow , she look very beautiful in close too !!!!

when she sang "旅行的意義", there were a couple of fans wearing the helmets, which made her so happy and of course, cheer and all her band members wear helmet while performing this song.

den follow up by 5 Encores, quite amazing.. this is the real climax of the concert, especially the fifth one, all the fans rush to front, and my brother almost fell down due to the pushing.

overall, it's great. i'm definitely a die hard fan now.i'm so regret that i didnt buy the concert t-shirt. i shld have brought it before the concert


these are some of the concert photo(is from other website as i cant get clear one)

蕭敬騰vs 楊宗緯 (新不了情)

发誓

深夜里， 我对着天空， 伸起我的拳头对着上面的家伙发誓， 我会尽全力让每一个我爱的人开心。我的拳头握得很紧， 很紧。

3分钟热度的我， 深怕自己会忘记， 现在写下来。 作为证据。

my lifestyle, my way

i think i start liking the attitude i have nw for my life, simple and simply. no worries for the future, jus think abt hw to entertain and bring joy to myself and others. always think abt joke, joke and joke. hw to make ppl laugh is a important
thing for me.


recently, i start to write song actively, probably nxt mp can perform. but i will not rush myself or give myself too much stress. 只是纯粹的写歌， 不是为了得到谁的肯定， 而是为了让自己爽。

简单， 纯粹。 my lifestyle, my way

i order everyone around me to get happy, so that i can be happy
i order everyone around me to stop crying, so that i wun feel sad for u
be the source of my happiness, and i will bring joy back to u
if u still feel sad after that, i will beat u up so hard, so that u will only feel pain and wun bother the sadness u have. this is call 疼痛转移法。

so, cheer up, bcuz i dun wan to feel sad for u

camp ended

scc samp ended ystd ...very tiring, got alot of fun, alot of joke, alot of work, and alot of injuries. oh ...i jus found my 前世lao po, peixin during camp, and nw we are such a lovely mummies couple ....lol(during camp onli).

oh....need to mention that all the injuries were due to unexpected accident, not bcuz the camp are dangerous. this are some of the accidents that happen. hurt my elbow during H20 game(thx to zhiwei..."i'm not blaming u"), hit my head during night game, hit the same elbow on the drawer when i was jumping onto the sofa...etc

oh ....and special thx to huiting, who prepared a light stick for me during the night game. thx alot , i appreciated it.

first day of camp in sch today ....have a lot of fun today , and ya ...dun worry for me.... g -force, i think u guy really think too much recently, i'm really fine ....

2 more day to go , got to enjoy myself, u guy , i mean g-force, take care for all urself.

tt it ....bye

may time fly. if time is the only thing that can heal your wound.

881

watch 881 with my parents and brother ystd. 1st time in my life i watch a movie in cinema with my parent...feel kinda weird but good also.

quite a unusual scene i saw in the cinema, there are alot elderly, i bet lot of them were in cinema for the 1st time, they dunno hw to find seat, and i managed to help some of them.

well, very noisy through out the whole movie, ppl talked very loudly, phone kept on ringing. i think they thought they are really watching getai. i find it interesting, the movie theme and the audience matched so much, 观众和电影之间没有距离.

well, i still like the movie aftall, touching scene, songs were nice and very funny conversation. jus tt , some parts of the movie was very crapy, (i think all the uncle and auntie dun understand) ,and dun make sense at all.

i think alot of ppl cannot accept the scene jumping method by royston tan, but i'm quite ok with it, since i support him after watching 15.

can be alot better, i think. hope that he can do better in his next film

attend some online test , and this is the result

Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Inner Color is Yellow

Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you. You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one person who makes you feel safe. Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actor.

What's Your Inner Color?

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

play some game

rule of the game : player start off to list out 10 weird things or habits or little known fact of yourself. ppl who get tagged must also write 10 things out. then the player must tagged another 6 ppl and no tagged back is allowed


1. i have nv wet dream b4 in my whole life
2. i score 68% for pureness in a online pureness test(I'm not dirty minded , ok)
3. i love to do psychology test becuz i wan to understand myself more
4. i hate some part of my body, my chin , my mole on face and my curly hair
5. i'm really evil-minded sometimes, even come out with plan to harm ppl i hate
6. no one have a good 1st impression on me, and it's truth
7. usually when somethings is 流行， i will go for the opposite ways
8. my 爱美 level is more than anyone can imagine.
9. i love history and ancient civilization, i even dream to be a archaeologist b4
10. somehw , i admire adolf hitler.

ok... 6 ppl to tag:
hui jia , zhi wei , maxwell, ivy, jann

长下巴

我怀疑长下巴的人都对人生有很深的体会， 都爱探索人生的意义。 weiming 和我就是如此。
虽然觉得他挺 贱 的， 可是，我到是很欣赏他的文笔以及对人生的观点和看法。

说实在的， SCC的前辈里， 我最欣赏的作词人， 就是weiming 和 chongli。 chongli的词 是技巧， weiming的着是人生经验的累积，是一种生活的态度。 就喜欢这样的词， 能引起我的共鸣。

读过他的blog，挺不错的， 很有启发性，值得一读。

再次的强调， 他。。。真的挺贱的（说这句话的我， 也挺贱的）

did my words solve ur problem, ur doubt ? or at least make u clear ur mind and sort thing out.

i hoped i do, cuz i already tried my best. i just wan u guy to be happy.

u can choose whether u wan to be happy or not. when u have a chance to be happy, pls do not give up on it.

我

我， 很两极的我

我，可以很善良像天使 也可以邪恶的像魔王
我，可以单纯的像小孩 也可以是多谋的军师
我，可以安静的像自闭儿 也可以是过动儿
我，可以很刚强， 也可以很脆弱
我，很实际， 也喜欢天马行空的胡思乱想
我，情绪写在脸上， 也会京剧里的变脸技术（就像每一个人一样）
我，不爱说谎， 却很会说谎
我，了解自己， 也不了解自己
我，闷骚，也坦白
我，自负，却也自卑
我，很爱自己， 却讨厌自己

这样的我， 却值得让我来写自己

杨宗纬-人质

originally perform by ah mei , i cannot say he sing better than ah mei, but i jus like this version more.

台湾节目 星光大道的参赛者，杨宗纬

人不帅， 却有一把好声音

接下来…爱

new song


接下来…爱

Verse:
几时开始 我不知道
这种感觉 它很奇妙
也许是我太傻或太笨
才会爱上你大傻瓜

做你朋友 已经很好
至少难过 有我依靠
他伤你多深我不知道
你爱他多少不想明了
应该让悲伤画下句号

Chorus:
接下来 这分爱 我们都
选择放开
了解 放开才能迎接未来

再见面 不伤悲 会庆幸
你还在我的身边
我们 依然是friend
感觉却变
而你不曾察觉 (我不想让让你察觉)

dedicate to U, for everyone who is in this kind of situation.

enjoy

went to watch movie with SCC gals, ziqin, wanting, hui jia, yun yean, and ivy on monday, ya , 5 gals with one guy, which is me. stop saying 艳福不浅，cuz i dun think so, they treat me like jie mei more ba.

feel kinda odd, jus not used to it, dun ask me why will feel weird, try to go out with a bunch of opp sex friends and you are the onli guy/lady, you will noe hw it feel.

through out the days , i didnt suan ppl much like usual, as i noe if i suan any of them, all 5 of them will counter attack. i cant even win any single one of them, dun even think abt if 5 of them joined forces.

watch ”sercet“， with hui jia and yun yean , while other watch simpson, quite nice for a newbie director, really impress by jay chou.

ahd i think he the one tt's really 艳福不浅, both the gals are beautiful, gui lun mei have a very special 气质, hen clean. i jus like her.

nice movie afterall, maybe next tym i will write a riview on the movie.

aft tt, we actually plan to go shi ma lu , guan yi miao....but too bad , we were too late, it had close. ifnot i sure help g-force to get another fu.....lol

有人欢喜， 有人愁

我知道这是奢望，明知是不可能的。。。。

毕竟，有人欢喜， 就要有人愁

但是， 我真的希望每个人都能开开心心的

你们的开心， 就是我快乐的源头。。

活在当下

people.... let jus 活在当下， which mean live for the moment, or live for the present.

you see, no point looking backward as we cant change a single thing that have been done. and we cant predict wad will happen next moment, we may knock down by cars tml, or a sudden heart attack strike. so no point bother about thing tt is unknown until it is reveal.

just live in the way you want, and enjoy it, be who you really are(which i have not been doing all the while), dun have compromise to other if you find it unnecessary or wrong. but of course, if u got a bad habit or personality that u find it necessary to change, den change it.
( like wad i have being trying to change, being OVER straight forward, but is kinda hard, but i will try my best)


want to cry, just cry, want to laugh, jus laugh, act cool if you feel like doing it, get yourself late for ur lesson because you spend too much time on dressing up
if u find some body very irritating, jus kick there ass, den aft tt go back and apologize, and point out problem that lied on them, and ppl get impress by you(i'm such a smart ass..lol)

blah blah blah ....getting too long winded

conclusion , be who you are, so wad if everyone in this world think you wrong, if u insist that you are right, you are right...

jus being stubborn ? maybe, but so wad , i'm right

oh .... i luv this post, it's so "fun".... shld get a prize of best post of the year

Complicated

it such a mixture of feeling today, like wad Jia like to say , mood is like rolling coaster. too complicated to describe these feelings.


i feel so guilty as i cant help much with the work, it not that i dun wan to do work, u should know, I'm not a slacker, maybe not really that hard working, but at least i will do my part. but these project, i'm really helpless.

blame me if you want, i can understand.


touched by kok yoh, heard the sound clip that he recorded, he shouted out, hoping every one can be happy and live without troubles. i cried out, cant stop the tears from flowing down. well, i didn't even try to hold on my tear,cuz is nth to be shame about.

deeply understand how precious is our friendship, wish G-force will last forever, of course including the gals also.

kok yoh, thank alot....u are being nice with wad u done for us, so cheer up also.

你的用心， 我们会感受到的。。。

感觉每个人都像在兜圈，以为继续走 会有出口，所以坚持不从入口出去。但是不管走了多少圈， 还是回到原点。
而每一个人都在步另一个人的后尘，已经有前车之鉴， 却还是不顾危险的走下去。总要到伤痕累累，心灰意冷时才肯放弃。

人类， 总是学不乖的动物。

tired week

a tired week , so much project to rush , so little tym to use, not even for slping.
i find it really difficult to concentrate on my work , just cant focus and do one thing at a tym .... and my show me a TV series "heroes" that really get me hooked, i jus cant resist nice drama or show, once i watch it , i need to finish it before i do others things.

today was actually the most tired day through the week , really doing alot of work, which really stress me out, and aft knowing that i fail my GA understanding test made me feel worse, so depressed =(

really hope that holiday come faster....

run away

我想我不不够勇敢 ， 我只会run away，离开， 是为了透口气
当作旅行，体验我从没体验过的人事物。

new mp3 player

well ...went to have a hair cut today with shang ying, didnt do much changes to my hair , jus trim it to make it neater, cuz i wan to keep long hair, if not i will try other hairstyles de ...next tym ba ....

my brother brought me a zen mp3 player today , i was surprised, cuz today was not my birthdae nor any significant day ...why would he buy me a present ....

but really thankful , as i can feel my family really doted me a lot

i like baby =)

went wei ming's sister hse to see his niece , join wanting and guo long in causeway and buy the present for weiming's little niece.....so looking forward to see his niece ....as usually , crap around with them. heard that jia min was bathing in weiming hse while we were waiting....arr, so off....wonder wad they were doing b4 that ....lol

den join Cassandra at west mall....we were guessing wad color cass will wear, i guess white, guolong guess red , wanting guess black, weiming guess blue .... well , aft we saw her, i was actually rite, she did wear white ....but, aft tt they crap again, cass say actually all rite, she wearing white singlet , black pant, blue BRA , and black underwear... den wad abt red ....she den say ... her 大姨妈 come .... hahahahaahahhaa.... so off lo ... we all burst into laugher .....

wah ...wei ming neice was super cute lo ....melted my heart ...有幸福的感觉...wah ...hehex...

den wanting carry the baby ... i was playing with the baby ...but she seem to be sleepy , slp all the time...lol

wanting was good with babysitting ....aftall she a nurse ..but really can be a mum le ba....

i tried to carry the baby too ... but i really no confidence ...i scared i will hurt the baby accidentally..so didnt carry long.

but i jus like to sayang the baby ... and i really like to see the baby especially
when she smile. sooooo cute

and if they didnt tell me .... i wun nv noticed, when i was playing with the baby ....my voice turn soft and a bit like acting kid .... lol , is natural for me when i see baby ba

havent get the photo from wanting ....aft i get it i will post it and share it with u guy ...really very cute =)

project project project ......like never ending ...dun even have time to write a longer post .....

i quarrel with my mum quite often recently... she complained that i always came home later and going out all the time. and ya , i really think she is right, i find myself at fault cuz i have nv help out anything at home yet kept on creating troubles.

actually i shouldn't shout back to my mum, but my foul mood are make me fed up very easily. and my mum always nag me on the time when i feel very frustrated. i jus can't control myself from raising my voice. and ppl who noe me should noe my temper, 我吃软不吃硬
, and haha, my mum also. (that why she is my mum, she pass down the genes to me :X)

i feel so sorry. but i really dunno hw to change myself nw. i will try not to shout back to her, if i can control

she the one who will care for me no matter what.
ya...she's my mum, i must be filial to her

家人不谅解 ， 我也没办法，虽然我的确不值得谅解

心里就酸酸的

一整天都怪怪的. 也许知道了太多不应该知道的事情, 心里有点受到打击.真相往往都很丑陋, 而我还没有习惯。
我真的是太天真了.

早上在bus上时,我心情很down,我试着笑, 可是怎样试都笑不出, 每当我试着笑的时候, 心里就酸酸的
还好, 班上的同学很搞笑, 让我暂时忘掉了那些烦恼. 谢了


而你呢? 真的没事吗，我不会再问，我会尊重你的立场，我只希望你快点好起来
不要再让我担心了.

换歌，换心情

算了， 转换一下心情吧， 换一首动感的歌

photo taken on fri when i went to marina centre with g-force, like always, fool ards !!!!

不单纯

原来一切都不单纯, 只是我太天真, 这里并不是 wonderland, 只是我一厢情愿的以为我是 peterpan
而现在我只有失望 !!!!

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm


Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You have a high opinion of yourself. It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offence.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

i need rest

actually i should have done this earlier rather then doing it last min, but i really got no time for it , jus like ystd, i need to go for the rehearsal.

but i manage to buy a presents for ivy today at marina centre, and i met guo long and wanting there, and u noe wad , less than a min aft tt, i saw jia min and wei ming... is was like , 来不及反应.

reach home quite late, just like previous days, so tired. 心情还是有点 xianxian de.


最近有点喜欢听这种很惨的情歌， 《两败俱伤》还有〈残废〉就是这种歌 ， and 残废〉still remain as the top played song in my i tune.

seriously, i need rest :(

waste my time

hao lei .... jus reach home , went for the rehearsal for np string ...the timing was so off , 7 pm ...so late.. den they keep on dragging , we jus wait and wait and wait.
finally , can rehear, den didnt inform us to go in ,didn't prepare us enough mic, didnt check the sound system, didnt even practice enough themselves.

since we cant coordinate with them....we decided to cancel it
and my conclusion is "waste my time"
i put in so much effort to practice it and went to school to practice with them
so sian...i even planned wad to wear for the performance...

swimming day

went swimming with g-force, joce and liyun on tue morning, having fun on that day.
we simply fool around and play all kind of stupid game like 骑马打仗, and throwing each other into the pool.

den dunno why, every tym i wan to throw kok yuh into the pool, end up i was the one throwed in .....got so many scratches on my back ...痛死了

afterall , it's so fun ....really enjoy it :)

其实很乱 ， 很不知所措。 我们到底是什么关系 我自己都搞不懂 。 我很怕再次陷下去，再次受到伤害。
我本来是想在我们之间找一个最平衡的相处方式， 但是我也不知道怎样才是最平衡的

我要前进， 后退，转弯在走 还是原地踏步。我自己也迷路了
也许。 你能回答我的疑问

malaysia trip

went to malaysia with kok yuh and wei qiang on malaysia ....i expect more ppl to go de , since quite a numbers of ppl went to extend passport tgt. oh ya, my one extend for the longest period, until 2014 while other is about 2010 or 2009 .

we wonder why there are so big difference. my conclusion was ,they extend the time based on shuai-ness or 帅-ness, so i'm the most shuai one , so extend longest. lol

but kok yuh straight away 泼我冷水, he say is due to the gender of the person , the more gay u are , the longer they extend for u as gay dun have to serve ns ..... =_="


den on sat , we finally went to malaysia , but the beginning was a nightmare, we was jam on the malaysia custom , it was really crowded and stuffy...damn hot lo
we waited there for almost 2 hrs....siao

all kind of *&#!@@$%^&* came out while i was waiting, wei qiang still say 心静自然凉 。。 aft tt he also cannot take it


well , a fruitful trip , found the vest and tie i always wanted, and also a new shoe
and ya ...lol
the sale gal in the shop tt i brought the vest was quite cute .... and i joke to kok yuh tt she one of the reasons tt made me went back to tt shop and buy.

and so my conclusion was , dun go to malaysia on sat , it will jam like mad
and malaysia gal quite cute ...haha

the ushering job is finally over.....this two day was quite tiring, but somehow, it was meaningful. i met a lot of seniors that are graduating, people like wei ming, Wendy, Angela, Catherine, mandy, and my senior buddy, yong jia , and some other ppl tt i knew during np idol, like shi min, and the female host who i couldnt remb her name.

seeing them graduating is kinda sad as i know i wun meet them tt often anymore , or even not meeting them again. however , i still feel happy for them , hope that all of them can have a better future.

for the first day, i went to meet zhiwei they all to have dinner with them and celebrate zhiwei's birthday, ivy didn't plan well, zhiwei found out tt i brought a cake
=_="

i didnt eat much as i ate the free food provided at the ceremony ...but i suggested them to drink the hot sake ....wow ..... it taste very good , very shoirk dringing it .... den hor , a lot of funny things happened ...all kind of crap can come out

for the second day ...well not tt fun la , but is still interesting. wei ming was very off , while other graduate are processing to the main hall normally, u can see this fellow reading the comic through out the way...even during the ceremony .....dots

well ....not much today , tml have to go extend passport and den go do project and sat still going malaysia , dun really have time to rest :(

主题曲

回忆的声音
播在夜里
像是一首旋律
多么美丽
那时我很肯定
你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就各分东西
再说我爱你
泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜
让伤心被允许
说过的话语
做过的事情
像歌曲陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

时间早已忘记
分手时候的无情
你给的美好回忆
让我有怀念的勇气



《原点》片尾曲 。。。虽然歌词不完全是我想表达的意思。。可是 chorus 还满像我想说的

歌名叫主题曲， 可是听起来比较像片尾曲。 一切在时过境迁后 的一首歌

a tired but fun day

went k-ing today with SCC fellows, wake up really early, so sleeply, cuz i slp abt 3 am last night. meet up with wanting and guo long. both was late , lol , guo long is so off la , when wanting reach the mrt station , he msg wanting that he just woke up only
...=_="

wanting was also very off , we kept on saying each other is jian -er den each other and dun be humble.

she is actually jian-er den cass and jia min , jus tt she nv find out( or she jus dun wan to admit it). lol

steve is even worse , the organizer yet he is the last one tt came.


well , so fun to sing and crap around with SCC ppl, the best is we actually sing exceed time le , but the staff nv come and chase us out...lol, zhuang dao

went shopping aft the k box secession, shop ard fast east, i remb tt there a shop tt sell very nice vest, but it was close , and i couldn't find it in other shop. so disappointed....

den ....den ....arh...... went to see steve performance at east coast, he sang quite well , got feeling when he sing , in fact i think he perform the best among the aom student...

den went back to wlds , chit chat with wanting and guo long until we also miss our last bus ...lol
chat abt so much thing , but the most off one is abt the vomit experience and staffs ...so disgusting, puke.......

i think tt all , so tired, need to slp

-good night-

just reach home....quite tired, ystd midnight i went out to meet sam for supper, den we walk around the area and simply chit chat. we chatted quite alot of thing , babe, gals,
school , relationship etc.... but most was on 心事 staff.

it was actually quite fun, when we are hanging around , we saw a very cute cat, this cat dun have those very evil eyes like other cats. den the cat follow us around, den we really play with it , is so cute , but it also scratch me ...ouch....

photo by sam

rotting

didn't go out today ..simply stay home and rot. i slp pretty late ystd and woke up late too , dun feel good when i woke up , aching over all body, probably slping in a wrong position. den my sore throat are getting worse , siao liao , tml still going to k box, hope i can recover by tml , if not cannot sing quite bo hua.... lolx

i was playing a stupid flash game which is abt killing zombie for the whole afternoon,
and yet i still find it fun ,i can try playing maple lo ....probably i will like it.. lolx

发现

didnt expect them to find out ....cuz no one really bother to read the about me section unless is their 1st tym to read ur friendster. they are being observant. lol

well , i dun mind at all , i dun wan to put it on msn nick or ps jus to go ard to tell ppl i got blog , the blog is still quite personal.

alot of u may not noe tt actually got a diary book , b4 i got a blog ,i wrote on tt , nw i will still write something tt i dun wad anyone to noe.

holiday

hoo ray !!!! finally all the project is submitted, term break are coming soon. well have to work on wed and thur in school as a usher , got to be a whole new experience.
well , have to plan wad to do in to for the nxt two week , but surly need to rest.

well well , gaining back all my fun energy , dash all the way ,lol.


finish watching shendiao , but after tt dunno wad to watch le ....anyone can recommend me any nice show to show?

be positive

didn't blog for this few day, so many project to rush , ya ystd i hand in the subway website project after i work overnight until 5 am to complete the thing (by myself). well after handing in the project , i still cant rest , i meet up with chuam lam to do the PP3 project, wah lao , got alot of error lo, all the script didn't work out , even chuam lam cant debug it, sian, dunno what to do nw !!

wad a hard life I'm leading nw , 最近， 找不到让我笑的理由

but, be positive, always look on the bright side of life :)

boring day

quite a boring day actually, i was spending my tym watching 神雕 , den went to sch for the afternoon lesson , on the way in bus , i was also watching 神雕, cuz really nth to do .

yeah , i change my blog skin and have updated it , try typing the code by myself and it actually work. 有一点满足感, haha.

你问我好吗， 我说很好， 我问你好吗， 你也不错。 希望是真的。
我希望我们都好。 真的， 希望你幸福。

start from some very small little things

yes , we can change , i can sense i'm slowly changing , starting not to read her blog , control myself when i'm chatting with her , dun get too involve. dun even mind whether she is ard the clubhse or not , tok to her like friend ( jus friend), slowly slowly

慢慢的, i slowly dun care for her so much , she dun appear in my mind tt much , even if she do , i erase her from my mind. although it not as easy as it sound.

maybe is jus like wad sam told me , we physco ourselves , 自我催眠， 骗自己， or whatever it is, jus try to forget.

this is wad i told shiwei tonite.
真正的快乐是放下 真正的放下是宽容 不要再埋怨了.

and ya , thanks to all my friends tt help me out , console mi
especially sam, kok yuh and wei qiang :)

我要快乐

不祥的预感

感情上的事 ， 暂时告一段落， 但是我总觉得事情有点太顺利了， 不大对劲！
现在有一种不祥的预感， 觉得有什么事会发生！ 希望只是我想太多了

ok, basically , we sort thing out , i appologise to her for my mean and hurting words , she accepted it by nodding her head , we crap and chat like usual today, i knew everything is going fine until tt fargot came into the clubhse , damn it la , always at the wrong timing , making me feel so uneasy.

well , let me pull time back a little bit more , on wed , our SCC activity day, she ignore me through out the whole night , in the end, i wait outside the LT and stand right in the middle so that he cannot avoid me , but when i call her name and tried to tok to her , she simply walk past me.... wow, that really hurt me man !

at tt tym , i nv thought our prob will be solve this fast , 我以为这次一定会拖很久。
however , i still sense some hidden threat , i cant put it in words , it's jus a feeling of insecure and fear.